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I did not sleep soundly as you said. The first thing come to mind when I open my eyes, is "gosh, see what terrible thing I have done."

For a second I regret. How nice if I'd never say those words to you, then everything would be just peaceful and calm. But I don't know would this happen again, if I just tell myself to tolerate and wait, try. Yes for sure the problem with me will repeat again and again, because what I did cannot actually solve it.

Maybe I am not what I see. Maybe I will realise one day, that I actually did not lose the feeling. But first I must get out of the current situation. This is what I must do.

It must be painful for you. I am guilty like hell.